I cannot for the life of me get a good positive groove back.
I am obsessed with nit picking and obsessing on the negative.
I am pretty sure I am in the middle of destructing my relationship with J. I have been cold, passive aggressive, frustrated. Continue reading “Blegh.”
How many people head to a marriage counselor before divorce?
The first time he came to me, told me he didn’t love me any more I was crushed. But I was optimistic we could do this. I knew this was just a bump. For 11 years it was us against the world. I can’t lose him. Continue reading “On a Scale of 1-10”
Lately. Far more often than I’d like. I get flashbacks of the fights.I get flashbacks of the good times too.
I stopped going to therapy. Not because I feel like I needed to, but because I had to. Continue reading “I Need A Good Day.”
Here is where I am at.
A year ago I was fighting for my marriage and trying to change for someone else. Begging them to love me.
Now I am dating a new man, fighting my ex for respect and trying to dig through the rubble for those pieces of me I’ve lost. Continue reading “It’s funny what changes after a few trips around the sun.”